I thought going out would make me feel better. But I still feel like crying. And over nothing that's the worst part about it.

Wow that's so... Idk the word. Not bad but just wierd. How come you can get a date or a boyfriend with ease. I don't understand how you jump from guy to guy like that. You say you love this one but then the next week you are going out with a new guy and soon you will say you love him too. This is so wrong. I don't understand why you go out with so many guys what makes them so attracted to you. I'm not saying you are ugly or anything I'm just very confused by this. And I think other people are too.

Well that was awful

Good times. "The floor is buckling" SMASH! Ugh I should probably take a shower or go to sleep but I'm so not tired and I'm too lazy...I will eventually. LAST DAY OF SCHOOL BEFORE BREAK! It's so close! And tomorrow shouldn't be too bad except Anatomy but we are disecting our cats so even that shouldn't be too bad. And the last two class periods we have watched the Magic school bus and sat there and talked so working tomorrow should happen. My face is hot. I just ran around outside chasing Corey and Chris. I tackled Ryan that was awesome sorry if I keep bringing it up I just think it's so funny. And I feel the same exact way.

Texting

Even though it's dumb stuff we say I still enjoy it.

I am bored

I don't know what to write on here. I'm not feeling anything too important.

There's school tomorrow. SUCK ON MY TOE SCHOOL!! I DON'T LIKE YOU! The roads are not slick at all.

I love when something gets you thinking.

Tonight we watched a movie in church called "The Star of Bethlehem" it was the most interesting and effective movies I have ever seen. It shows you the constellations and how they were when Jesus was born and when Jesus died on the cross. Tell me if you have or haven't seen this (not you Melissa I know you did). If not you should seriously watch it. If you have wasn't it awesome. i'm a type of person who needs proof it's bad to say but sometimes I doubt what happens but when someone can show me something it helps a lot. I try not to second guess anything but I always have questions about why things are the way they are. Sorry.

I like Christmas. I also decided I want to live in one of those stone cottages they are so cute.

I was just looking at old pictures. I like doing that because I remember how good I felt on those days or how I felt in general on that day. It makes me sad and happy at the same time. Sad because it's gone but happy because there is more to come.

Lol that was so funny. I was sitting right there

Did you know that puppys are cute...and that they whine a lot.

UGH!

WOOHOO NANCY DREW!!!

My guard paper

This is a song is about Brooke and Melissa. They are the bestest of friends. Melissa always wants an apple shot off her head. Since Brooke is such a good friend she gets a gun and shoots an aim that’s true. Isn’t that fantastic?!?!?!? Melissa learned lines for Brooke’s mom at the play last night and she is very confusing. But it has been known that despite the confusion she is the most beautiful girl in the world. Time Magazine said so. They both also like to play Sims until 4 in the morning and thinking that the man’s name is Hector. Brooke enjoys Vanilla Coke.

Why..

...do people insist on answering a question in that way? When i ask if someone wants to go eat with me I don't want responses from people saying no and then the reason why they can't go. That just makes me feel like a loser. Or people respond that I wouldn't probably choose to go with in the first place.

I played bingo tonight. My knees hurt. And the ankles. And the hips. MY POKER FACE. pppppppoker face.

Time goes by so slowly

When you are home by yourself.

In a tavern or a honky tonk.

I have just had a super fantastic weekend! And now it's ending ='( sad day...well night.

I'm going to be Little Red Riding Hood for Halloween and I'm very excited for tomorrow night.

Go listen to this guy!!!!


http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=44595766

Melissa is amazing :]

Oh and Andrew made this.

Ha Ha!

Hello I am in photography class. I don't know if I'm supposed to be on here. I left my camera at home ='( I don't know what to write so I will post this picture.

Sorry if I have been rude this week. But you could understand how I would want my senior year and last show to be perfect so sorry if I have been rude to you this week. I'm just cranky and depressed about it. You'll know next year.

Woops I have not updated in awhile. But if you only knew the torment I go through. Crazy schedule! =D Football game tonight and Ozarko tomorrow.

I like a boy...his name is boy.

Some pictures I took in photography class

Andrew edited them but I wanted to post them anyways.

EW!!!

We have practice tonight. And I have guard homework...actually thats not ew I LOVE GUARD That is woo!

Ugh I'm so tired and I hurt.

I dislike

When girls don't act like themselves around guys they like. It's one thing to talk less but you shouldn't be rude to your friends about everything. Your friends are still going to be your friend tomorrow that boy is going to be a jerk.

I LOVE YOU ALLLL

You love us all?

Yes I love you all!





THERE'S SAFTY IN NUMBERS!!!!

Sometimes

STUFF JUST TICKS ME OFF!!!!

Hillcrest Fails....forever. Except in Guard.

AGH THAT'S A HUGE SPIDER!!!

Yay hump day is almost over!!! And I don't have anything I'm worried for the rest of this week. Usually I have something due. But I don't. YAY! And I only have my classes once time through. For the next two days. Isn't it a joy to relax.

I'm so tired

Ugh

My back hurts. Just so you know.

Freddy, my love

Your spellings kinda crummy
but honey so is mine
I treasure every gifty
The ring is really nifty
You say it cost you fifty
So you're thrifty
I don't mind

AGHH!

I simply hate school.

I just don't know about you...?

You make me happy. You make me sad? Nah not really. Just the first one? You don't know. You might know? I like you. You could like me? But that won't happen now. Will it? I'm awesome. So are you. So why are we like this? I don't know. I don't care....okay that was a lie. Even though I have no idea what I'm writing...or that's how it would appear....I know what I feel. =D It's not like that yet. But it still makes me happy to know it could be. Sorry this sounds like I'm a stalker..I promise I'm not like that one creepy girl...Or am I? La LA I'm wasting time. Doing nothing. =D
=D
=D
=D

I hate you

I wrote a whole blog. And it just disappears.

I wrote that last blog yesterday....but it says it was on the 18th....which is a lie. Because today is the 20th.

Okay so it is raining hard core. And after I eat I'm going over to Chris' so hopefully it dies down some. I really don't want to drive in this hard of rain.

Chasing Pavements

Ah! What to do? What to do? Life is confusing sometimes. Walking up to the band room tonight I got to thinking. About how being a senior to older people doesn't feel to old. But I could never ever imagine myself this age before (I feel like I've written this before). I look around me and I don't know anybody from my school anymore. Not really anyways. And really to be honest I don't want to get to know half of the school. They are rude and pushy. When you are an underclassmen you pretty much know who the older kids are. Because knowing them makes you "cool" or something. Being older it's completely the opposite. Anyways my original point was that it feels akward getting older. I cannot not picture myself getting old. What will I look like? Where will I be? It kind of depressed me. Because next year I will be on the younger side again. How weird is that. You work youself for 13 years. Then pretty much start at the bottom again. You feel like you are really cool because you are finally the oldest. Then BAM! high school is over.

Yay I forgot a day!!! And it was actually a funny day. Oh well.

CRY BABY CRY BABY CRY! It has a tune...I promise. Anywho I just woke up from a nap about 50 minutes ago. Now I'm doing nothing. Oh hey I'm stage manager. I didn't try out. I don't like to sing in front of people. It makes me want to puke.

Aw Melissa!

I like my Nitendo DS and something else....well um hm... I digress. I ate at El Taco. And sat there for around 2 hours. It was sunny when I got there and dark when I left. Such an odd feeling. I like...stuff! =D

Ha I thought I didn't update yesterday but I did!

I'm so tired!!!

I forgot to update yesterday but who cares it was my birthday I do what I want on that day. Anywho I ate a Zio'x with my family. And Melissa got me a cake. My brother got me New Moon. My dad got me a Nitendo DS and my mom got me a game for it. That's about it for yesterday. Today I had stuff I'm tired right now though and it's boring stuff. I'm gunna go lay down and watch t.v. UGH I need to clean my room so bad.

Went and played Bingo tonight with Ashton, Melissa, and Joey. For mine and Ashton's birthday. It was very fun. After bingo we went to Mcdonald's which was very funny and fun too. Then Melissa and I talked on the phone about funny thing =D and she was the first to tell me happy birthday on the actual day. Now I'm tired good night.

Hm...

So I have been looking back at my freshman year yearbook. It's very odd. Like on my winter guard picture it says I am a "new comer" that's strange to me. It feels like I've been in it my whole life. I don't know who or what I would be if I wasn't in guard. I would be so different. I would probably be a terrible person. I probably wouldn't go to church. I wouldn't act the way I do. I wouldn't have that many friends. And the friends I would have would probably do bad things. It just really makes you think how much things could've changed with one little descion.

Surprise Party!!!

So tonight Corey had a bonfire and I thought it was just because his step-dad was out of town but no, well yes but, it was also a surprise party for me. I was seriously not expecting it at all. I really appreciate it too!

Tutoring has been good times.

But I'm afraid this will probably be my last day in here. ='( Me and Karasyn were just looking up the lyrics to "Without Love". Class is about over and I'm am worn out. Band this morning was very fun. I got called as cute as button so that was a little odd but still very funny. Lots of people were outside watching us. Tonight I have no idea what I'm doing...I really just want to sleep. Hmm 1 minute left better go. Lesley is a jerk!

Singing songs in tutoring.

Karasyn and I are too crazy to help little kids. They should put us in a mental institution. =D The blacker the berry the sweeter the juice yo. She also suggested this for a blog and it's a great idea. Also I forgot to mention in my last post that Lesley last week kicked the computer onto the floor in Tutoring because she got so angry. I can't believe it!!! =O

Okay so

I'm not gunna write down about my weekend. Or this past week because SO much stuff has happened. I wrote it down in English and since this is mostly for me I think I'll be good. So I have a new song it's on my myspace profile. It's called "You Don't Know Me" it's a colaboration between Ben Folds featuring Regina Spektor. They both have amazing voices. I also might be going to Paris and London over spring break with Ms.Widman. I'm very excited my dad said he would pay it and I really hope that he actually does this for me. I will seriously be heart-broken if I don't get to go. London is like a dream of mine. Well really Europe in general. So much different culture. I'm very excited for that. Paxton and Megan are going too. I turn 18 in less than a week. THAT'S SCARY!!!! Last year when I had senior friends and they turned 18 it didn't seem that old but now...gosh. I couldn't even imagine myself this old when I was younger. I always wondered what I would look like when I turned this age. And I'm about to find out. It's a scary thought. Life is moving so quickly half the time I don't know what to do with myself. And there's so much money to pay and so much stuff to turn in. It's nuts. Speaking of I need to figure out what my Anatomy homework is so now I'm going to go.

UGH!!!!!

Uh

Can't get motivated to write but lots of stuff has happened.

I figured out something

I don't like to blog over the weekend

I will just update my whole weekend tomorrow! I'm too busy to lately.

OH MY GOSH! I FORGOT AHHHHH!

Teehee Teehee!

This is my update for today! I'm not gunna break my promise of writing in this everyday. I'm just very worn out right now. I will update in the morning.

Who drew this boy with a vodka bottle and a blunt?

Ha Ha today was so funny. I laughed a lot! I'll just make a list of my day.

Early Morning Band-Same stuff different day. It always seems to drag on.

Photography- That was funny I shared a computer with Andrew but every time I touched ours death was upon it. So I gave up and made stuff on Kirsten's computer and I made a swirly vortex of death! =D In the cowboy town.

College Algebra- We have a sub for 2 weeks. I drew the whole time because our teacher made no sense. During the second fire drill Jake asked me if I had a gun he could use. If I did I would of used it. Everyone was so confused and annoyed. The teacher gave like an hour long speech on what respect is.

English-HA HA HA! This is where my title came from. Everything was pretty normal to start I actually like English a lot. We are reading Beowulf right now. And I guess people left trash in there from our last class. And she kept the papers to tell us we should keep the room clean. Well she was asking what belonged to who lol and I guess the was a picture someone drew and she asked "Who drew this picture of this boy with a vodka bottle and a blunt" Lol Me and Morgan laughed so hard. Other stuff probably happened but that part stuck out. So many inside jokes in one class.

Lunch- Again HA HA HA! Melissa took a midol and considering girls only read this I'm gunna say it's appropriate to write about. I told her if they caught her taking them that she should just get mad first then burst in to tears "You just need to shut up it just hurts so bad" It's funnier said with the yelling and crying.

Neighborhood-Same ol same ol.

Band practice-Scared out of my mind to get hit by either Chelsey or Allison's 4s. =S

Sorry that was so long =S have a nice day!

Musical tryouts are on the way.

Okay today was a repeat. Also early morning band started this morning. And it was a hot one. I was soooo hot I'm bringing water tomorrow. Also Karasyn told me she loved my guts. Speaking of guts I felt mine in Anatomy which is what I have right after band. I missed three questions on the quiz even though I knew everything. I fail. FASHION DESIGN WAS A HOOT! We got to make a newspaper dress. I'll put the picture up when Melissa puts it on myspace. But in my group was Sarah, Melissa, Alana, and Alyssa. We also made a purse which I still have. Then lunch was not as exciting but I like being able to have my phone out in front of teachers and administrators. It's a big ol' shove in the face to them. Then tutoring was boring. That won't be fun until I actually get to go tutor. I'm thinking about going for Mrs.Compton. After school I talked to Ms.Studdard about when the tryouts are and they are the 15th-19th. I think that's what she said. I think I will actually tryout this year =S I'm indecisive about it. Anywho then I went home to take a nap. And then we had a voting at church and it was pretty entertaining just because of our row of people. We drew on eachothers arms.

Tuesday!

Was a pretty good day. I can tell Orange Days will be the boring days. But I like how we actually start doing stuff in class this year instead of just sitting there going over the same syllabus. My first class of today was Photography. In my head I kept thinking "oh crap I'm not gunna have anyone in here". I was so wrong. I have Kirsten, Andrew, Matt and I'm sure I will start talking to other people in there. That class is going to be very entertaining to say the least. Next was College Algebra. There is 36 people in that class and a lot of them are my friends so I won't name them all. But I do have Marissa and Jake in there so that should be funny. Last I had English. I was kind of dreading that one the most so of course it was last. But it wasn't as bad as I thought I have that class with Morgan, Grant, and Kelly. Also gunna be entertaining. Me and Morgan already have a joke from that class. This is France (. This is Scandanavia Lol. Then I had lunch with a bunch of guard kids again! Lunch is gunna be fun this year! I'm really excited to get in the swing of things.

First day back

Well that went by faster than expected. I first had band and I got to spin so of course I enjoyed that. Then I had Anatomy with Skyler, Cullen, and Ben. Well let's just say that's gunna be a funny class and a very strange one at that. Then there was fashion design. And I found out that I had 3rd lunch instead of 1st like it has been for years. So there I was sitting with a growling stomach. Then I had lunch with a bunch of guard kids and Sarah so that was nice. Last but not least I had tutoring which dragged on the most because I just relearned basically same thing as last semester. That was fun at school. After school we went to Sonic. We meaning me, Chris, Brianna, Carrie, Skyler, Cullen, Ross, and new Jake. That was funny. I missed Sonic Mondays. Anywho then I came home and read then kind of slept. I'm bored now so I finally decided to write this. Woohoo keeping up with my promise so far. Tomorrow is a new day with new classes. And I have English which I must say I'm not looking forward too and pretty much the only class I'm not expecting to be fun. At least I have Morgan with me. I miss having Mrs.Jasper. Well I'll tell you about fun fun classes tomorrow!

New School Year

Is tomorrow. I'm gunna try and write in this everyday. It's gunna be tough and sometimes I wrote write in it...and nobody will read it but I will spill my guts out tell my thoughts and bore you to death. This year is looking to be exciting. I'm also very nervous for it. At the end of last year I made a list about myself listing my favorites movies my favorite stuff and all that jazz. Thank goodness not a lot of change but the stuff that has is for the better. In about two weeks I'll fill it out again for Senior Year. It'll be great fun. Anywho I'll update about my first day of school tomorrow. I'm sure it'll be full of excitement(sarcasm noted)

This is going to sound rude!

But I'm tired of listening to your relationship problems. Maybe people shouldn't talk to their lonely single friends about how crappy their relationship is when they won't do anything about it. Sorry but I'm not going to be very helpful when I'm angry about my own self. Then I'm just going to lash out and be rude.

Ah to be famous

I really wanna be famous something fierce. I hate being that girl that people forget about. I'll meet someone then the next day I'm like "oh hey" and they have no idea who I am. Am I really that forgettable or are these people just idiots? Maybe a bit of both? I don't know you see some people who are famous and you just wonder how they became so famous they aren't very good at what they do I know people who are way better. It's just very annoying. Take for example Hannah Montana, she's only famous because of who her dad is. She's NOT a good singer at all. Sure her songs are kind of catchy and funny to make fun of. But she sucks at singing that's all there is to it. Or Paris Hilton. WHAT DOES SHE DO? Carry her dog and cell phone around. Oh yea and "act" in House of Wax. Oh and "sing". I think not. Random bablings are fun. There are some way better singers than the Jonas Brothers. They are only famous because they are hot. There's a lot better variety out there it's just sad to see the youth of America having role models that, for lack of a better word, suck. Just disappointing.

Today is Hump Day

Which means it's Wednesday! I have church tonight and I'm really excited for that but I'm not excited for band camp today luckily it should feel that long since we are leaving for 2 and a half hours for it =D. Sorry this is boring but I needed to write something for this finally and I don't think anyone will read this. So it might be like a diary although probably shouldn't put anything too personal just in case. Although again I really don't know what personal I have to hide. Except the guy I like or if I like a guy. I usually don't go spreading that around. Just because the person you like should not hear it from someone else that's ridiculous. So who I like for now is a big ol secret! HA HA!