Hi people! I might get to teach at P.V. now. You don't even know how exciting that is! I really hope I get to.

I can't fix anything when you speak in riddles that I don't understand.

I'm not okay. You would think I am. But I'm not. Really honestly whenever someone asks me whats wrong I just say nothing. There is. Idk what it is. But I'm not okay.

I don't like feeling sick.

SURPRISE!!!!

I'm so glad we came and kidnapped you. That was awesome with the look on your face. I'm very glad you had a good time and you got to punch someone around ;) That's pretty funny. Sad day today though that we didn't get to TP but um that happens you know. But since it's wet outside it would've been awesome. I wanna play some more crab soccer. Green Santa almost died.

Saturday night I watched channel 5
I particularly liked CSI

Just kidding

I hate this weekend

It's a big pile of stupid stupid stupid CRAP! I HATE IT! I WANT IT TO END! Be over.

It's not a funny ha ha

To joke about that is simply not funny to me. I don't believe it was a joke though. I believe that you lied to us after. I know you do that stuff. You think nobody else knows. But they do. Why do you act so innocent? You are def not. Sorry that I think that is stupid but you shouldn't blame other people for the mistakes you are making. Melissa didn't do anything and you were acting like she was being a jerk for not asking you about this huge "joke". If it was a joke why couldn't you just come over and tell us? Instead you made a huge deal out of it and acted like you were the victim. No it's dumb. This is not just the first time you have done this either. I think drinking and doing drugs is stupid. It's ripped apart my family and I don't think it is ever funny as a joke in that context. Driving around while you are drunk is stupid. I'm not sorry that I make you feel stupid. You wouldn't feel stupid if you were doing the right thing.

So...

I graduated. It's funny how you can work 13 years of your life and it can end all in an hour. I'm a little excited for next year. And nervous. But mostly excited. Project graduation was fun. I really liked the Wheel of Fortune game. It didn't last that long. But that's it. I don't HAVE to see those people again. At least not for awhile.

Glad everyone cared to notice. HOORAY! >=(

Seriously. I wish I could be as awesome as her. She sings so pretty. And she is such a good actor. I love her song in Yes Man. It's the best.

Just some pictures I found on photobucket.

Graphic Design....

Here I am. Again! I'm so excited for the band banquet. I'm wearing my cute occasion dress that I got at J.C. Pennys I saw it and it was too perfect. I had to get it. This day is almost over and there is only 3 days left...That's a scary but exciting thought. I still can't grasp my mind around it. It's crazy. I might put some photoshop crap up on here later.

I just wanna know

What the freak is wrong with me? I'm so stupid. I just wish I could be as nice as some of you are. I just can't make myself do it. I try but I just can't. Sorry if I'm so hateful it's just the way I was made. I don't know how to fix it and I'm really trying but nobody really knows. And this time it's true. Nobody really knows me this time. You don't know how much I cry when I come home. How lonely I really am although I'm with people all the time. Sorry I'm so mean.

I'm just gunna keep my mouth shut

and not say anything anymore.

I like bowling.

You are not good my butt hole. Anywho I liked that bowling tonight and getting 60 tickets and such. I have tryouts tomorrow...well today I suppose. But I am so excited/nervous!

IT'S ALL MY FREAKING FAULT

I MESS UP EVERYTHING!!! NOT YOU ME! i NEVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT. THAT'S WHY i HAVE CRAPPY GRADES. THATS WHY I CAN ONLY DO ONE THING WORTH WHILE. THATS WHY I HAVE NEVER TAKEN THE ACT! THATS WHY I HAVEN'T APPLIED TO COLLEGE. I CANNOT DO ANYTHING RIGHT I JUST EXPECT TO LUCK INTO THINGS. I never expected a stupid argument over a stupid pair of sunglasses would have me crying for the rest of the night but oh look it has. I'm just going to roll over and die. I don't want to talk to anyone this weekend I just want to go to tryouts and stay in bed for the rest of the time because I am the most awful person ever and I should be shot. And don't say "oh no no Brooke you are awesome" because it is not true. It never was true. And it will never be true. I have deluted myself and apparently everyone else into thinking that i'm actually cool. I'm not and I hate myself.

Here's what I have come to realize. Everyone always says "Nobody knows the real me" So do we really know anybody we talk to? Are we just walking around thinking people are our friends when actually we don't "know" them at all? I'm just saying that I guess life is one big let's lie to everyone and hide what we are feeling. But actually even though I kind of feel like nobody "knows" me I know that they actually do. I'm sure people know about me than I think. And I'm sure people know more about you than you would think. And if you are going to hide everything why complain about nobody knowing anything. What's the point? Then you just end up getting mad at them for asking so many questions. This really has no point just something I have noticed EVERYONE do. Including myself.

So I heard some guy got shot in the butt

What a way huh? I don't think anyone died NEWS TIME!

Lock down???

Okay so our school is on lock down. This is really creepy. Escorted to the bathroom? I want to go home so bad. And we have to stay here for however long they say. Guess no picture today? Unless they say it's okay to leave. Then Daphne shook the door. Which scared everyone. It's kind of funny. Nobodies in the school but there is someone in the area. Which makes me so nervous. I want to call my mom to go home.

Going to Try

I want to write all the time again. I just went and read all of my old posts. I'm so lame. But it's actually a very good look back at this whole year. Weird though it makes it seem like this year wasn't that long at all. I graduate in two weeks. I know you guys hate it when I bring it up but I like to talk about it. I'm excited to graduate. I just wish it was one week instead of two. Which with the way things go it will be in no time. Hm...Hm...Hm... I feel like rearranging my room. But I don't know how to set it. Also I would have to clean my room first. I need to do my English homework. IT'S SO DUMB THOUGH!!! Why have the sae project over and over and over. IT GETS BORING!!! Even if there are different options the other options are too hard to do so nobody will do them. DUH! Anywho. 9 days of school left.

I feel like

YouTubin' again. It's okay Golden Girls are very good to watch instead. Usually Murder She Wrote is on tonight but tonight it's all Golden Girls and there are more than usual nights! I find it sad that I'm more excited about this than most other things.