Your text was the first thing I saw this morning :)

I miss you

I don't even think anyone reads this lol.

Here I am hating my life trying to find the bright side of the day so I don't end it and all you care about is if you look fat.

Would you finally remember me if I was gone?

Whenever you look at me, my heart drops to the bottom of my stomach. That's how I know

I hate my life

I hate school

I don't want to live anymore

I wish it would've been just us.....oh well...

Will I ever tell... It could happen. Today Even.

So I guess I'll get over it...and maybe one day I'll move on...

I'll just die that's fine

I liked that day that I just sat with you while you painted. Seriously thanks for inviting me along.

It's not being single so much that bothers me. It's that I'm not with you and you have no idea

I miss you already. I wish you were here....but you aren't so I guess I just have to figure on on my own. I know what I want to happen but I still don't know exactly want I'm looking for. This is really different....

One of the most wonderful days ever. Until Pride time. Then not so fun. Muddy and gross was what it is. And sweaty. Ick. But everything else....perfect.

One of the most wonderful days ever. Until Pride time. Then not so fun. Muddy and gross was what it is. And sweaty. Ick. But everything else....perfect.

The hardest part is keeping it a secret day in and day out. I can't tell anyone. I want to so badly but then I just can't bring myself to do it.

I don't know why I'm so sad all the time. I have so many reasons to be happy. But I just can't make myself do it.

I hate being needy...but I'm getting to a point where I need people. I hate being that person. I don't think they can help me anyways though so really wants the point...

It's just that sometimes it hurts so bad...I could treat you so much better. And I wouldn't ever break your heart like that.

How can I pour my heart out to you without it changing things? The answer is I can't. I'm still so confused...I know I like you but whether you like me or not is a mystery. Most times I think yes. But every once in awhile I second guess my self. I don't know....and it frustrates me so much. I hate not knowing what's going on. But I know that in the end I know things will work out. Maybe not how I want but what I need. I just hope those end up being the same thing.....

Hey remember that time you made me pack up my life in a week and told me that we had to leave that day basically when a friend was over and still made me go to school....yea stop making me worry about moving this time k?

Never will I ever get a chance to tell you. And I think that's the part that hurts. The fact that you'll never know.

Any complaint that I make about something that is actually bothering me....

I just get told not to complain. This is why I don't tell people things. I just complain about stupid things. This is also why I write it out instead. Because a journal listens a person doesn't.

What's it called when guys only talk to you after they break up with their girlfriend? Like they are hitting on you right after? I mean I don't want them to hit on me while they are with their girlfriend obviously. But it's like they break up with their girlfriend talk to me and act interested and then get back with their girlfriends. It's really hard to describe but message to you.....please stop making me feel like I'm not good enough to be a first choice or like I am some filler for your time alone. It seriously hurts me and makes me feel useless.

Maybe if you took the time you spent complaining about something and applied it to something productive like practicing you would actually get what you want....Just a thought. But no you complain that you won't make it. Then complain when you don't. And honestly you'd probably complain about something if you were on it. So I'm happy that you aren't so I don't have to hear your whiny ass everyday on the practice field this fall.

If I died right now I don't think anyone would even know.....

You don't ignore what I needed from you for so many years then get mad when I mess up. I needed you too even if it seemed like I didn't. He got the most attention which is understandable given the circumstances. Everyone thought "Oh I hope he isn't depressed" He wasn't the one that was. Everyone expects everything to be okay because I've made better choices but it's not okay. I've felt like something has been missing for awhile now. So I filled that emptiness with the only thing that has truly made me happy. No matter how frustrated I get with it. I love everything about it. You don't listen. I hate school. I'd rather die than go back. I felt like throwing up everyday because I didn't want to go. But you don't know because if I bring it up you ignore it. It's probably my own fault maybe I should have just said something. Then the other night yes I was angry with you because you ignored me for a man that broke your heart. He is also the reason you pretty much ignored us for two years. If you want me to get my priorities set right could you please figure yours out and ignore him for once. Choose us this time.

I can write so many things but I could never put it to music. I would have no idea where to start

Even after all these years I'm glad I can always say I've had a good friend to get me through. Thank you Kate Nash. You will never know how much you've done for me but I will know forever and that's okay.

People keep asking "What do you want to do with your life" My usual response is "I don't know" but really I've known all along. I've just always been to scared for fear that they will tell me it's dumb. It's not dumb to dream it's exciting.

Feeling very 90s this week.

I know this song and Unpretty were both on Glee this season. But I like these versions better. I like a good 90s song. It brings back so many memories. Of hit clipz and Spice World.

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People always talk about being the bridesmaid and never the bride. I've never even been a bridesmaid.

I miss T.L.C and the 90s

Sorry about my hormonal rant. On the bright side this is my 400th post! Happy two days before the world ends!

Dear Harold

I'm sorry but really? You were wrong before and I'm pretty sure you're wrong again. I don't believe that any person can predict when the world is going to end. If they actually could and I knew this information I would keep it to myself and just help as many people get saved as possible not scare them into getting saved. This is such a publicity stunt and so wrong. Ugh the things people say make me angry and sick. Oh well everyone prepare for the rapture I decided to make it in June instead of Saturday because apparently if you just say that the world is going to end that makes it so. Plus I need to watch the season finale of Glee so don't rain on my parade.

Done.

I need to get out of springfield. All of my friends are leaving to do really cool things. Some are marching drum corps. One went to virginia to dance for a company. And another has an internship in new york....i just feel lame being here doing nothing with my life. I just wish i had more of an idea. I just feel stuck.

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I love this song

How nados feel about Springfield

Now I have nobody. The end.

I hate Zombies.

1. The overall theme for the apocalypse:
Losing Heart-Brandi Carlile (That's hopeful)

2. The song that plays when I kill my first zombie:
Say Goodbye-Dave Matthews Band (BOO YAH!)

3. The song that plays while I'm being chased by a horde:
Buttons-Sia (I just pictured this and it's really funny)

4. When I kill my loved one:
Single-Natasha Bedingfield.....(Well that one worked a little too well lol)

5. When I find a group of survivors:
Hanging on too Long-Duffy (meh)

6. When I meet my new love interest:
Super Trouper-Mamma Mia version (Lol that is funny too)

7. When I make my final stand:
Under my Bed-Meiko (These are working really well lol)

8. When I think I've survived it all:
Umbrella Beach-Owl City (Everything seems fine...)

9. When I discover a bite mark on me:
Go Away-Eisley (That is what I would say..)

10. The song during the end credits:
Giving Up-Ingrid Michaelson (That's a sad one. I could see this movie ending at a me finding the bite mark from number 9)

I just people reached out to me as much as I feel like I'm reaching out to them. I don't think anyone ever asks how I am doing unless I ask them first.

I cant handle you messing up over and over and nothing happening and then i mess up once and bam its the life sentence. I cant keep taking the blow for you this is ridiculous.

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And it's funny how absolutely nobody truly and honestly cares.

Better than Rebecca Black???!?!?!?!

Yup how cute is she?!?!?!?! She better work with that Shirley Temple Hair.

Wonderful wonderful wonderful! Watch!

Adele - Rolling In The Deep

If you haven't heard this song or seen this video well now you can. You're welcome. It's beautiful.

Arctic Monkeys - 'Fluorescent Adolescent' (2007)

Don't remember if I've ever posted this one. But it's enjoyable either way. I know I've posted Kate Nash's version. This is the orginal. I could listen all day.

I guess i just thought you were a bigger person than that....guess i was wrong.

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hhahahhaha

Brooke-"melissa this music makes you sound like a pot smoker"
Melissa-"uh this is jack johnson radio so it makes him sound like a pot smoker"
Brooke-"hahahahahha"
Melissa-"thats whats up"

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Pull in close with your significant other and have a laugh...or two.

Have a good day.

Sorry Beibs but the only thing you "deserve" to win is a big pile of crap.

Kate Nash- Carolines a Victim

Kate Nash will never get old to me. I love this song. It's about her friend Caroline and actually stars her friend Caroline. I love all the random little things in her room. Enjoy!

Expiration Date - Pomplamoose VideoSong