Tomorrow I have to give my first speech in class. I will probably pee my pants and throw up simultaneously. Not a pretty picture. I just want to get it over with so hopefully I'm like first or second or something around there. Hopefully they don't push it to Friday although all through class I'll be hoping for that. That is not what I want. I want to get it over with. Pushing it back only makes me dread it more and then I'll probably spontaneously combust. Also not pretty but reality...sort of. I'll mostly just feel that way. I keep telling myself everyone has to do it and everyone is just as nervous as you are and will probably think that they also sound like a complete and total idiot. It's okay you'll make it through just a semester of this. A fragment of your life. My little pep talk. Megan is coming over to listen to my speech. What a good friend hopefully she doesn't think I sound like an idiot because I think I sound stupid. I should just be mute.