Listen
listen
listen...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtVh8kVZ_XM

So cute!!!! I'm gunna steal that freaking dress.

I have figured out what I want to do. It defeats the purpose that I want to write something meaningful..but I like it.

Julie and Julia has inspired me. I would like to write something that affects someones life and is sort of a project. But what oh what do I write about. I feel like everything has been written about.

Joy Williams-Charmed Life

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irE_sgXnioM

It's cute. I love this song a freaking bunch. It's top option for my middle school show right now.

You fill up my senses like a night in the forest
like the mountains in springtime, like a walk in the rain
like a storm in the desert,like a sleepy blue ocean
you fill up my senses,come fill me again.Come let me love you,
let me give my life to you
let me drown in your laughter,
let me die in your arms
let me lay down beside you,
let me always be with you
come let me love you,
come love me again.
let me give my life to you
come let me love you,
come love me again.
You fill up my senses like a night in the forest
like the mountains in springtime, like a walk in the rain
like a sleepy blue ocean
you fill up my senses,
come fill me again

First night of Nashy practice tonight. I am so excited. But now I feel like one of those people I saw at competitions wearing their MSU jackets. I'm so excited I get a chance to do what I love in college. I'm so lucky I live in Springfield even if I am on "b" guard. Everyone that is on it is excited to start so it makes it ten times better than anything. In high school you had somebody that doesn't ever want to work. In college everybody is there for guard pretty much.

I'm on Nashy =D It's a very good thing. I can keep going to church on Wednesdays now. I won't peak as a freshman. And I'll probably be on mainline. That's all good stuff!!!

Nobody gets on here anymore.

Winter guard is gunna be ten times more fun the fall guard. I can already tell. YAY!!!

I'm Jealous

I want these all.
http://modcloth.com/store/ModCloth/Womens/Dresses?page=1

SO CUTE!!!!! AGH!!!!

So had a talk with John about winter guard. He told me to work on a lot of stuff I pretty much knew I needed to work on but just forgot about. He also told me that my performance last year in winter guard during my solo was wonderful and that I should find that again. That made me real happy!

I have only spun rifle for two days in my adventure of Pride Colorguard and I have already smacked myself in the head and smacked myself in the knee. Both left bruises and bumps. I wonder what nice lump I will get today. I still love rifle though I feel so awesome when I catch it solid. And not to brag but my triples were oddly stronger than they used to be. And I haven't spun rifle for awhile.

Dear Chris,

I love you. You are a cutie.

Love Brooke.

I WANT SWEET TEA RIGHT NOW!!!

I need to take a shower. =p But I'm so lazy. I just don't feel like it. I'm so lame.

My ears hurt. Sadness. But I'm not really sad. I'm in good moods. YAY WINTERGUARD!!!!

People really. Why should we sit here and complain about life? Sit back and appriciate what God has given us. First of all you are still breathing second of all you have better families than most people do. Why waste you time being depressed all the time and acting like everything is such a big deal when really life is actually kind of simple from a day to day basis. I know that some tasks are hard but you don't have to let them get you down. I'm just tired of being so happy then people bringing me down. I love going to guard when I didn't before because the people there are so much more cheerful than you people. I know I know poor you poor you. But what good is life if you don't just enjoy it? If you are always complaining about life you never see the good in it. Yes I know I do my share of complaining. But I hate myself after. I'm not trying to make people feel all sorry for me. Which is what some people make me feel like. I used to be way worse. I'm glad I grew up and understand now that it is a stupid path to follow.

Puzzle Party!!!

I got Skype!!! Yeehaw!

Oh Collages I love you so much. You have so much meaning and one crazy crazy outcome. It can be anything ANYTHING!! I love it. And you can always find something interesting in them! Something new.

Same things everyday. Day after day. I'm excited for church. And for Saturday! Yay other bands. Boo to boring weeks! At least my homework is getting done. Bluh.

FML

I suck this year. FLAT OUT SUCK. I'm tired of being so mediocre. It is obviously my own fault because I should practice more. But I'm a little aggravated that I was lied to for like 2ish years. Thanks guys. But I am just mediocre at guard and at everything else I try to do. It's like average average average. Sorry Brooke you won't stand out. EVER!!!! You will always be the girl in the background. And to top it off I don't feel like I can talk to anybody about to about this because everyone will either a. disagree b. change the subject to them or c. not care one bit. But you people aren't me. You don't spin with me everyday. I suck.

I hate cleaning my room. I just get so distracted.

I'm excited for practice. Just no rain hopefully. I'm tired of drying off my flags. A drizzle is okay but not like yesterday or Saturday...That sucked.

I started a new puzzle. Idk.

Okay some thoughts.

• Patrick Swazye I love your dancing you dieing makes me very very very sad. =( I will watch your movie now and cry.
• Kanye West you are an idiot. Good job. If you would've just waited until the end of the show you would've seen that Beyonce won best video. You are a dumb dumb head.
• Beyonce you are so very classy.
• Taylor Swift you ar pretty and I'm glad you won. You deserved it and you deserved to have your moment.

Sorry that was all about Celebrities. Yup! Now me.

• Okay so I finished a huge puzzle. Thank you Corey and Lindsay.
• I have been doing alright in school.
• I am making more friends at Pride and I get my jacket soon!!! I still feel alone there sometimes though. It's whatever. Thanks to the people who made me feel at home there.
• My birthday was this past week!!! I got lots o' stuff. 3 new Regina Spektor cds, a new purse, money, puzzles, gift cards, nail polish, pants, socks, food. And probably more stuff that I cannot remember quite at this moment...sorry if it is your present. =D

Thank you for reading if you did...=S

Woo Birthday time!

Phew what an eventful night. Trying to find Dakotah was exciting to say the least. I'm glad me and Melissa found him on Broadway. He was just walking. Poor guy didn't know. It just made me really nervous because I heard of something bad happening in the woods by Truman like recently but I could've been dreaming it. Oh well I'm glad we found him. I just liked how surprised he was it was really funny. I'm already laughing about it. It'll all be good. Tomorrow is gunna be funny.

Chris I'm so glad your home that I want to cry happy tears until you leave. Then they will be sad tears.

-Shakes head-

I can't help what I analyze. Sorry.

So I'm a little depressed. Because it will be 3 hours more before you get here tomorrow. =( We'll probably be tired and cranky. I'll just have to get over it.

September is the best month ever!!!! =D

I don't want to have to do anything today. It's only two hours that's not that long...I guess.

Okay so yes Miley Cyrus is very lame. But I really do like this song so I found someone that sings it very well. I feel like I can relate to this song ,and probably a lot of you can too, at this pont in my life. Since we are all moving on and doing ,finally, what we want to do. You don't have to watch it because It's kind of creepy to just watch a video of someone singing solo in their living room. But you should listen she is pretty good.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mD10m5NajMU

So facebook is being dumb because everyone is all online at one time and it makes it go all stupid for some reason. I'm really getting aggravated that I can't even do anything on there. Also I just now got randomly dizzy. And it happened the other day too.

I feel lonely.

Woo

Next week....will be a very stressful and depressing week.

I HATE EVERYTHING!!!!! OH MY GOSH!!!!! AH!!!!! I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!!!! URG!!!!!!!

So I'm in Indianappolis. I am bored right now. And I just took a shower. It smells really strong like really strong flowery spray and I am listening to a car chase.

Okay I just realized something very funny. Usually when people graduate you talk to the people you went to high school less because it's your fault. I'm not talking to most of my high school friends because it's their fault. They always say stuff like I'm busy or something when really they just sit at home on their computer and be lazy anyways.

Okay so I made a new blog pretty sure it's gunna be a reading list/whatever I make blog. So if you are a good friend you will go look at it. =D

So thank you Corey for that duct tape. I'm finding tons of things to make now. It's freaking incredible. I love it. This is cute but they actually make you pay for it...that's kind of lame when you could just make it yourself. It is very well made though.

So I can remember this always.

"I do not like you! you think you are incredible at everything and no one will ever live up to your standard. REALITY CHECK! you're a -----, your over controlling, and you go crazy if you don't have it your way. I'm happy you've graduated and I don't have to deal with you anymore. Just admit you might be wrong once in a while and maybe more people would take you seriously"



Wow grow up. I'm glad I graduated too so I don't have to deal with people like this anymore. Obviously you don't know me at all because then you would hear about how much I actually do doubt myself. People do take me seriously and people do respect my opinion. I think really this is the only complaint I've really had. This seriously came out of no where. It had no reason to be said. I think I know who it is and really get over it. If it is who I think it is then really have no room to talk because you are exactly if not worse than me. Trust me. And I can have confidence in what I do I have been doing it for 4 years I have a right to say that I know what I'm talking about. Because most of the time I do. There is many things wrong with me trust me I know very well without stupid under classmen telling me. You really have no idea why don't you grow up and leave people alone that have done nothing to you. and really get over it. This person whoever posted it just wants to start drama and it's really sad that they couldn't even say it to me personally they chose to hide over honesty box on facebook. That's really the lamest thing ever. I guess I won't ever figure out who this person is. Yea right. If they would've sent me a message I would've just kept it between me and them but since they decided they needed to be secretive with me I decided to publicize this. Fun eh? I do miss my friends in high school but not jerks who do stuff like this. It's really pointless and stupid and it came out of no where.

I know I don't want September to actually be here but I do miss the fall a whole bunch.

I had a dream I went back to camp it was just very different. VERY DIFFERENT. Then I went to a Kate Nash concert. She slid down this wierd slide thing. It was green and she flew into a table. Lol.

I'm tired of always having to make the plans. Not counting Chris or Brittany or Corey(including megan who is with him). You people are stupid. You are supposed to be my friends but you never invite me anywhere really I have to make plans with you or invite myself. That's stupid you are jerks. And it makes me very mad. Stop saying how much you miss me and do FREAKING SOMETHING ABOUT IT! This is usually how a conversation goes with you people. "Hey brooke I miss you!" "Oh hey I miss you too let's hang out sometime" "I'm really busy" obviously that's shortened but seriously. Stop being so lame and stupid. Maybe you don't wanna hang out with me? Idk Idc just stop saying you do then backing out of it. I have seriously had like 3 people do that to me in one week and it is seriously pissing me off.

I forgot to post this from a week ago. I just really thought this was neat. I kind of wanna find the background information on why they did it.

I EDITED THIS ONE!

Okay so I put a playlist on here. And it's kind of lame as in you can't scroll. But you can just make it pop out. I'm probably the only person that will actually even listen to it really. Also keep in mind there is some language in them. Sorry Kate Nash is a potty mouth.


You can scroll now. I put it at the bottom because Chris is smarter than me.

I always mess up things. I'm very good at accidently doing the wrong thing at the wrong time. In fact I'm perfect at it. I wish it was an olympic sport I would totally get the gold. Don't comment this and tell me I'm wrong. I know I do. And if you were going to agree with me please feel free to comment away.

Whatever. You are wrong. No I won't be okay.

Caroline's a victim killer killer killer killer beat.
Kate Nash has the best music. Sorry if you don't agree. But really happy angry sad. Funny stuff. I love it.

I don't think I will fit in with them. We aren't really the same. I have to stay true to myself. I just like the picture.

This looks so good still. =D

Today it has been 6 months. That is odd. I didn't even really think about it until I was really bored in the shower. And I thought about what day it was. I like that we don't really celebrate little things because that is too much hassle. Oh how the days fly.

Here we go these are it.

Actually I got shoes that look like this(but different). The other ones were too slippery.

I like waking up early and doing what I want to do.

I'm also getting new shoes soon. I like new shoes. Especially ones as cute as those. They were cuter there at that store. They are track shoes. But I need something good for running so... It works for me.

Camp.

Honestly I've never had anything change my life so fast. I felt like I was there for so long but a week really wasn't that long at al. I really enjoyed it there and I feel so much closer to God. I've prayed more. For the first time ever I prayed with kids younger than me. Two different girls. And I feel like it really helped them. There was so much funny stuff. But it could be so serious at time with such a good message. I know this camp was for middle schoolers but it really changed my life too. And I can't really explain exactly how I feel and I know people will think I'm just going to be the same old me. But I really hope somebody notices a change and I want God to just keep helping me keep my faith. It's easier to keep it when you are surrounded by people who are stronger than you and helping you along. But I now see a challenge ahead of me and I know God will help me through whatever I need help with.

Okay sorry I needed to write that all out. Now it seems like everyone is leaving me. I don't literally mean just me but I feel like that. I know why people need to leave but it still really hurts me. But it makes me not even want to try in this next month. I know I need to spend as much time with you guys right now before you pack up and leave me here to rot in my self pity. But I just would rather not have it hurt so much.

Don't tempt me I'll leave.

I keep thinking of that firework blowing up by that tree. Lol. Poor opossums.

I am house sitting for Carrie. Today one of her rabbits is supposed to have babies! =D

I don't think anyone has ever said anything more perfect.

Today is July first. Isn't that great. I don't feel like getting out but luckily it's church and I enjoy it. So that's good. Some people leave lyrics (Brittany), some leave faces (Chris), some leave the time (Ross). I'm going to start leaving pictures at the end of my posts. I enjoy a good visual.

Kids are evil but this picture is cute. Can't you just see that little boy crashing the girls sleep over and popping all their balloons.

I'd like to get more sleep
But my mind just keeps me up
I'd like to be able to write
But I can't seem to find the words

Get over it. If you don't like it then leave.

http://www.cockneyrhymingslang.co.uk/

That's a neat little site.

If you like British people.

Like I do.

And rhyming also.

Sorry that I'm so dumb.

I made some changes. I like them. How about you? The picture is a bit big at the top but I like it.

This should be by 200th post. Nothing really too important to say. Last night I went to the movies and Melissa spilt popcorn all over the floor. Then soda on herself. It was really funny. Now I have some crappy cramps. WOO! Or not. I'm very bored right now. I have come to realize I don't really get invited places. Not counting Chris, Melissa, or Heather. Unless I make it happen or I happen to be with Chris when he gets invited.

I don't feel like doing anything. But yet I have to do so much crap. Why is it that when I don't want to do anything there are so many options to do stuff.

I don't know how much more you want to get to know me. Maybe you wish something was there that isn't. Maybe I'm not exactly what you thought I was. Maybe you have this image of me that isn't actually me. I have let you in more than anybody but yet you still want more. I don't understand. Maybe there isn't anymore for you to see. I'm not that confusing.

"What if I fall further than you?
What if you dream of somebody new?
What if I never let you win, chase you with a rolling pin?
Well what if I do?"

Sorry. I can't do anything right. It's never your fault stop saying that. It is my fault. I'm cold and distant and mean. You can disagree all you want but it is true.

Stupid phone.

I do not want to clean my room. And I like the stuff that's in it. I don't want to get rid of anything. I already did that.

I love Kate Nash.

And I'm stubborn and I shout and I'll cut you out
And I'll make you feel like I never wanted to make you feel

I need to meet her.

What is with the lack of this. Lame.

WOOWEE HOT DOG! I HOPE TODAY IS LIKE LAST TIME AND I DON'T HURT MYSELF!!!!

I don't want to be me. I mess it up.

I wanna see this movie

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsD0NpFSADM

I will never live up to the imagine you want me to be. You say you don't want me to change. But i would have to in order to be what you want. A loving girlfriend.

What an idiot

http://www.reuters.com/article/entertainmentNews/idUSTRE54P5L820090526

I will. Because it feels like you hated me for a month. There's no point in not. I'm such a stupid jerk. I...

I can't hide from the fact that it is my fault. Don't lie.

And I can't even help you. Because you won't let me.

Hm.... nobody has been commenting on my very in depth blogs... They are so good and full of information. Or you know not.

I'm very tired.

I have to pee.

I just thought this picture was funny. Bella doesn't smoke. And Taylor looks so disappointed.

Oh my gosh I just watched the New Moon trailer. I think I peed a little. The Edward and Bella crap sucked but I got to see Jacob turn into a werewolf. CRAZY STUFF! I can't wait to see her on a motor cycle. I still think Kristen Stewart is an awful choice for Bella. I don't have high hopes that it will follow the book very well. They will probably cut out a lot of good parts.

So it's 6:30 and I'm still awake. This really sucks. Because I can't actually fall asleep when I try. My posts have been really short. But Chris just comments them because he loves me and likes me to feel loved so he comments them for me. Hey Brittany I could've taken all the stickers off your jeep by now. I'm still annoyed...You know what Brittany. We talked about it for a second or two seconds. I'm very very very bored.

Hi people! I might get to teach at P.V. now. You don't even know how exciting that is! I really hope I get to.

I can't fix anything when you speak in riddles that I don't understand.

I'm not okay. You would think I am. But I'm not. Really honestly whenever someone asks me whats wrong I just say nothing. There is. Idk what it is. But I'm not okay.

I don't like feeling sick.

SURPRISE!!!!

I'm so glad we came and kidnapped you. That was awesome with the look on your face. I'm very glad you had a good time and you got to punch someone around ;) That's pretty funny. Sad day today though that we didn't get to TP but um that happens you know. But since it's wet outside it would've been awesome. I wanna play some more crab soccer. Green Santa almost died.

Saturday night I watched channel 5
I particularly liked CSI

Just kidding

I hate this weekend

It's a big pile of stupid stupid stupid CRAP! I HATE IT! I WANT IT TO END! Be over.

It's not a funny ha ha

To joke about that is simply not funny to me. I don't believe it was a joke though. I believe that you lied to us after. I know you do that stuff. You think nobody else knows. But they do. Why do you act so innocent? You are def not. Sorry that I think that is stupid but you shouldn't blame other people for the mistakes you are making. Melissa didn't do anything and you were acting like she was being a jerk for not asking you about this huge "joke". If it was a joke why couldn't you just come over and tell us? Instead you made a huge deal out of it and acted like you were the victim. No it's dumb. This is not just the first time you have done this either. I think drinking and doing drugs is stupid. It's ripped apart my family and I don't think it is ever funny as a joke in that context. Driving around while you are drunk is stupid. I'm not sorry that I make you feel stupid. You wouldn't feel stupid if you were doing the right thing.

So...

I graduated. It's funny how you can work 13 years of your life and it can end all in an hour. I'm a little excited for next year. And nervous. But mostly excited. Project graduation was fun. I really liked the Wheel of Fortune game. It didn't last that long. But that's it. I don't HAVE to see those people again. At least not for awhile.

Glad everyone cared to notice. HOORAY! >=(

Seriously. I wish I could be as awesome as her. She sings so pretty. And she is such a good actor. I love her song in Yes Man. It's the best.

Just some pictures I found on photobucket.

Graphic Design....

Here I am. Again! I'm so excited for the band banquet. I'm wearing my cute occasion dress that I got at J.C. Pennys I saw it and it was too perfect. I had to get it. This day is almost over and there is only 3 days left...That's a scary but exciting thought. I still can't grasp my mind around it. It's crazy. I might put some photoshop crap up on here later.

I just wanna know

What the freak is wrong with me? I'm so stupid. I just wish I could be as nice as some of you are. I just can't make myself do it. I try but I just can't. Sorry if I'm so hateful it's just the way I was made. I don't know how to fix it and I'm really trying but nobody really knows. And this time it's true. Nobody really knows me this time. You don't know how much I cry when I come home. How lonely I really am although I'm with people all the time. Sorry I'm so mean.

I'm just gunna keep my mouth shut

and not say anything anymore.

I like bowling.

You are not good my butt hole. Anywho I liked that bowling tonight and getting 60 tickets and such. I have tryouts tomorrow...well today I suppose. But I am so excited/nervous!

IT'S ALL MY FREAKING FAULT

I MESS UP EVERYTHING!!! NOT YOU ME! i NEVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT. THAT'S WHY i HAVE CRAPPY GRADES. THATS WHY I CAN ONLY DO ONE THING WORTH WHILE. THATS WHY I HAVE NEVER TAKEN THE ACT! THATS WHY I HAVEN'T APPLIED TO COLLEGE. I CANNOT DO ANYTHING RIGHT I JUST EXPECT TO LUCK INTO THINGS. I never expected a stupid argument over a stupid pair of sunglasses would have me crying for the rest of the night but oh look it has. I'm just going to roll over and die. I don't want to talk to anyone this weekend I just want to go to tryouts and stay in bed for the rest of the time because I am the most awful person ever and I should be shot. And don't say "oh no no Brooke you are awesome" because it is not true. It never was true. And it will never be true. I have deluted myself and apparently everyone else into thinking that i'm actually cool. I'm not and I hate myself.

Here's what I have come to realize. Everyone always says "Nobody knows the real me" So do we really know anybody we talk to? Are we just walking around thinking people are our friends when actually we don't "know" them at all? I'm just saying that I guess life is one big let's lie to everyone and hide what we are feeling. But actually even though I kind of feel like nobody "knows" me I know that they actually do. I'm sure people know about me than I think. And I'm sure people know more about you than you would think. And if you are going to hide everything why complain about nobody knowing anything. What's the point? Then you just end up getting mad at them for asking so many questions. This really has no point just something I have noticed EVERYONE do. Including myself.

So I heard some guy got shot in the butt

What a way huh? I don't think anyone died NEWS TIME!

Lock down???

Okay so our school is on lock down. This is really creepy. Escorted to the bathroom? I want to go home so bad. And we have to stay here for however long they say. Guess no picture today? Unless they say it's okay to leave. Then Daphne shook the door. Which scared everyone. It's kind of funny. Nobodies in the school but there is someone in the area. Which makes me so nervous. I want to call my mom to go home.

Going to Try

I want to write all the time again. I just went and read all of my old posts. I'm so lame. But it's actually a very good look back at this whole year. Weird though it makes it seem like this year wasn't that long at all. I graduate in two weeks. I know you guys hate it when I bring it up but I like to talk about it. I'm excited to graduate. I just wish it was one week instead of two. Which with the way things go it will be in no time. Hm...Hm...Hm... I feel like rearranging my room. But I don't know how to set it. Also I would have to clean my room first. I need to do my English homework. IT'S SO DUMB THOUGH!!! Why have the sae project over and over and over. IT GETS BORING!!! Even if there are different options the other options are too hard to do so nobody will do them. DUH! Anywho. 9 days of school left.

I feel like

YouTubin' again. It's okay Golden Girls are very good to watch instead. Usually Murder She Wrote is on tonight but tonight it's all Golden Girls and there are more than usual nights! I find it sad that I'm more excited about this than most other things.

BAAAHAHAHAH!!!!! -pillow drop-

Melissa fell on her butt. HA!

My Ears Are Burning

Well today I don't feel so good. My head feels like it weighs 1,000 pounds. Oh well. I use to type up a lot more interesting things on here. I'm feeling a little blue. I still don't know what I want to do with my life. It's depressing. I feel like posting some things on here.

Today was a day of firsts.

The first day I have ever seen a dead body.
The first time I have ever passed out.
Funny thing is my head should hurt but my hip and back hurts the most. Oh today. Oh today.

Feels....

Today...

is beautiful. I just wish I had better things to do than to sit at home since I woke up at 9:30 and decided I would actually get up. I never do that. Yesterday was a lot of fun. Just hanging out with everyone and watching tree riding or whatever you guys called it. That was hillarious. I wish everyday was like yesterday. Even though I hurt myself a bunch.

I don't think it's okay to ground an 18 year old.

St.Peter is gunna come and getcha

Today was such a fun day. I am steaming up right now though. With this spiffy new jacket I got at the thrift store. I never knew there was a free store! And the things are actually free. Weird huh? Just things that happened today that would take too long to explain were very funny. "Is that your mating call?"

The school is dumb. You need to tell people that you are changing the times of your blocks before hand. Some of us don't have a first block and we can only find out when the classes have already changed. Thanks stupid school. You have failed me again. Like always.

Poor you. You shouldn't have to deal with those stupid pieces of crap anymore. I wish you would find a nice older guy.

I am at Lindsay's house right now. We just got done seeing Bride Wars for Melissa's 17th birthday. We had a really good time. Good friends. Good times. Too bad you weren't there Chris it was a chick flick. Right up your alley ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J4bCmKGxMaA

That video is so cute!

I feel lost.

I'm still a little aggravated but I guess I will just have to get over it. Even though.... Well I'm about to make a cookie cake with Chris and Lindsay. Then I will take a shower. Then I'll take some medicine, go to sleep, wake up at 6 to see my dad before we both leave. Then I will go back to sleep. Then wake up and go eat breakfast with my brother mom and chris. Then go to the airport. Then fly.

Hi I'm in graphic design. I finished my project so now I have nothing to do. I came into the computer lab and it's dark and it is making me super tired instead of kinda tired. It sucks. I wish you would stop talking to me in riddles. Aren't we supposed to talk about anything to eachother. Nope apparently not.

I had a very wonderful weekend. It was better than anyones ever. I can't pick my favorite day. The one where Ryan went through a window. Which technically wasn't the weekend but I had the whole day off so... The day I had guard, got a new camera and went shopping with my mom and brittany. Then went to Columbia and randomly picked up Steph on the way. Or yesterday when Steph put her butt on the capitol building then Chris and I hung out the whole night and had a pizza and cookie dough. =D all of it. I pick all of it.

Really?

I am really excited I got the Ingrid Michaelson and Jaymay Cds such good singing.

I just want to lay down and cry for the rest of the day.

Well I may suck at acting but at least I got my artwork up in the display case this year.

TO COREY!!!

If they are from Mexican Villa then YES!

Glad that's behind us. Lets proceed.

I don't even know. How come everything be so good then somebodies stupid mouth messes it up? I'm not looking forward to guard for one reason. Because we are getting a talk about the drama. The drama didn't even have to happen but alas it has. We are supposed to be close not telling secrets and spreading rumors about each other behind each others backs. Everyone needs to stop being two-faced. I'm sure I am sometimes also. If you are having an issue with someone go up to them and talk to them about it. Stop going straight to Jessi and Frankie. They have more to worry about than everybody's stupid drama. How can anybody fix something if they don't know what they are doing? Let's all just be a little more mature about situations in the future. I know how this all ends up it's not pretty. I just want to celebrate winning not be bummed about the drama.

In your eyes you may have "won" but we still hate you.

Sorry that I laughed at you. It was wierd though you have to admit. =D

Why do you do that to yourself? You are masochistic.

I wish I was cool like that.

I really had fun tonight. Which is surprising I didn't think I would be doing anything besides English homework. I need to cut my fingernails.

I really shoul be doing homework. But it's just so boring. Especially since it's Dante's Inferno. -gun to head motion- Talk about boring literature. And I have to write a bunch of dumb study questions. Luckily I only have answer 5 out of 8 of them and I have 3 done. But then there is another page of study questions. Ugh. I like shopping.

BLAH! =D

Well pizza was taste good. Until I threw up.

Pizza is taste good. =D

lol

you did it again.

Why does there have to be so much drama when I just want to be happy. Can't I just move on. I want to ignore it. I wish everyone would ignore it. Last night at church we learned about unconditional love. And I KNOW I do not do that. But it made me think about it a lot. We all just need to sit back and reevaluate our lives. Just because you are smart doesn't make you intellegent. People need to honestly take that into consideration. Thinking about what you say before you say it shows maturity and intellegence. Just because you can give some big speech , on facebook none the less, doesn't make you mature. That's very immature. Spreading the crap is also very immature. I just want to be happy so I wrote this out to forget all about it. So this is it. I'm forgiving everyone. Every person that has ever hurt me. I'm trying to wash it away. I hope you can forgive me too. If you don't I guess that is going to take time and experience.

Brooke is

really tired. In general about everything... I wanna go home and sleep it away.

Chill out!

Girl you move faster than superman. Slow down you don't always have to be with somebody.

Why can't I?

I did not type up that last blog. But that doesn't make it any less true. I need to learn how to sign out when I check my blogger at Chris'. So I woke up with another bloody nose this morning(afternoon rather) that was entertaining sitting in the bathroom for 20 minutes waiting for it to stop. Well I'm about to go to my grandmas to eat food. I just hate the getting ready part. Sorry if I don't make over there tonight. And I'm done with this other thing don't mention it anymore and if I do just be like "Brooke you are talking about it" I will try and stop. I can get very obsessive about one subject that makes me mad and then it's all I think about. On the positive side. I also really enjoyed yesterday. The guard got second but I'm almost positive that's how we started out last year. Then we stomped. I just want to medal. First would be nice though. Then later that night. I was so tired but I'm so glad I went over and we sang Sweeney Todd together. I hope we didn't make our friends feel awkward.

So...I'm so stinking awesome. In case you all couldn't tell, I'm like the friggin' bomb.

And...my boyfriend is possibly the coolest guy ever! So cool! He is just a great big stud!

Also...he has absolutely no feelings at all towards you.

Um...

;)

You trust me? I don't think it was wise of me to trust you.

You stinker poop head.

I will not move on. You knew how it was. YOU KNEW! I'm sorry if I'm not a forgiving person but come on. If someone did that to you and you thought you were close friends and then you talked bad about them to someone they liked wouldn't you be a bit ticked off? Hm? Oh because I am. And I am not the only one. Leave us alone.

You are better than anyone else. I'm so glad I waited for something great. Because you make me feel better by just being near.

I think I might kill myself

I'm so glad to be dating you. You make me feel so happy. I want to see you so bad today so hopefully Brittany can come pick us up. I really hope so.

Lets get rich and buy our parents homes in the south of France

Lets get rich and give everybody nice sweaters and teach them how to dance

Lets get rich and build a house on a mountain making everybody look like ants

From way up there, you and I, you and I

So here we are. I'm so excited to see what comes along. I hope it's all good.

This is great! =D

Things don't have to be difficult. We are making them difficult.

Yay photography. Matt is working on a Finale Project.

I'm gunna start putting everything on the left. Nobody ever uses that one it's always centered or on the right and I'm sure the left side feels neglected.

I just like this song

Too attuned
Too in step with the obvious
Too at ease and strange
So amused and I'm always jealous of you
People never change
Nothin' but blue skies always on my mind
Blue skies on my mind
I promised your blue eyes
I'd never be unkind
There will always be
There will always be unkind people
Now and then
I'm wishin' I never
Let you let me disappear
Take me off this stageI don't get it at all
While we're both still here
Nothin' but blue skies always on my mind
Blue skies on my mindI promised your blue eyes
I'd never be unkind
There will always be
There will always be unkind people
Stars on my left
Stars on my right
You and the moon
In the dead of night
Faith brings me back to the place I met you
I bet you miss me sometimes
Sometimes
Nothin' but blue skies always on my mind
Blue skies on my mind
I promised your blue eyes
I'd never be unkind
There will always be
There will always be unkind people

Here goes

This is what is going on in my crazy head. You told me you didn't want to get too close to anyone because you were leaving but you still want to get close to me. It's drives me insane because I want to get close to you too but I also realize you are leaving and so I push you away so I don't have to mess with it. It really makes me sad.

I don't think you understand why I'm doing what I'm doing. If only I could explain it the way it is in my head.

Besides that this feels like a perfect Friday.

That's the dumbest thing ever! I can't believe they are so dumb. It really makes me mad.

Ha Ha nose bleeds are funny. So are ketchup fights then getting in trouble then out of it then almost back into it? Idk but you never throw it back. And you never gloat but it was still hilarious. Today was my last day of tutoring. That depressed me a lot. Guard was fun. It was a pig-tail party as Jessi put it. Then Morgan almost falling was funny even though it probably hurt her. Then Lindsay house was funny. I like bending back really far.

Hm sleeping from 6-11 wasn't a very good idea.

Stop changing so much. I think you should let your body catch up with your different styles. I think everyone is forgetting who they are and putting on a fake shell. I must admit it's entertaining but "different" is not what you are.

Worse and worse I just keep feeling worse everyday.

Well that's just lame it's your own fault really.

I still feel the same.