Sorry that was a bit harsh. You aren't jerks. I still stand by the post though. I appologize if it was rude but I don't appologize for the meaning.

You guys are jerks. Please don't pretend to care anymore. You only talk to me when you want something for yourself. I may not make contact with you but I don't come to you wanting something either. There are obviously exceptions. Just be aware of how you handle things before every conversation is about how life is affecting you. I have issues to you know. That I don't get to talk to anybody about. Because nobody cares to listen. I do my fair share of complaining I am not going to lie about that. But when you don't talk to me for a very long time then expect sympathy you're probably going to get it. Because even though I think you're dumb for doing this I can't help but feel bad for you. Sometimes I just need to get things off of my chest for once. And I don't feel like I have a single person I can talk to. Don't give me the bull crap that you are here for me either because I know that if I started talk to anybody that they'd turn the conversation. I just don't feel like I have a best friend or "friends" anymore.

But like everything I've ever known
I'm sure you'll go one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
And I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away....

but I probably will.

Tonight was rough. Found out my grades. They suck of course. I'll make it through it though. I just have to take it a day at a time and complete what I need to complete. I do have an A in English though which makes me very happy! I love that class. I hated English class last semester but this semester it rocks. It shows you that the way somebody teaches really affects the way you actually pick up information. Not saying that my teacher from last semester was bad because she wasn't but I just didn't understand as much.

We learned a new dance at danceline tonight! We have stairs, canes, and boas. I know you are really jealous right now because if I was you I would be. Our outfits consist of a vest, shiny rhinestone buttons and best of all a bowler hat!!!! I'm so excited!!! I'll have to put up a picture of it sometime which I will once we actually get them.

BOA tomorrow not looking forward to looking like crap next to high school kids. But you know it's whatever. I am excited to see their shows though. And spin inside a dome.

Here it is 11:30ish at night and I'm still no closer to finishing my homework than I was at 8. Maybe if I put down the bag of chips and turned off "I Shouldn't Be Alive" I would progress more. Although how can you argue that I shouldn't watch this show because what if I get caught in the outback and my car explodes? Or I get stuck in the middle of the ocean and I get stung by a bajillion jelly fish? Sounds like terrible happenings but obviously it happens or there wouldn't be a show dedicated to it. Meh I suppose I should just write and study. I don't honestly have that much to do I'm just so lazy. There's no denying it I'm flat out lazy. Wish I wasn't but I enjoy just sitting around doing nothing. Oh well...Buck up little Brookie and do your homework.

Haven't listened to this in a long time =)