I like bowling.

You are not good my butt hole. Anywho I liked that bowling tonight and getting 60 tickets and such. I have tryouts tomorrow...well today I suppose. But I am so excited/nervous!

IT'S ALL MY FREAKING FAULT

I MESS UP EVERYTHING!!! NOT YOU ME! i NEVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT. THAT'S WHY i HAVE CRAPPY GRADES. THATS WHY I CAN ONLY DO ONE THING WORTH WHILE. THATS WHY I HAVE NEVER TAKEN THE ACT! THATS WHY I HAVEN'T APPLIED TO COLLEGE. I CANNOT DO ANYTHING RIGHT I JUST EXPECT TO LUCK INTO THINGS. I never expected a stupid argument over a stupid pair of sunglasses would have me crying for the rest of the night but oh look it has. I'm just going to roll over and die. I don't want to talk to anyone this weekend I just want to go to tryouts and stay in bed for the rest of the time because I am the most awful person ever and I should be shot. And don't say "oh no no Brooke you are awesome" because it is not true. It never was true. And it will never be true. I have deluted myself and apparently everyone else into thinking that i'm actually cool. I'm not and I hate myself.

Here's what I have come to realize. Everyone always says "Nobody knows the real me" So do we really know anybody we talk to? Are we just walking around thinking people are our friends when actually we don't "know" them at all? I'm just saying that I guess life is one big let's lie to everyone and hide what we are feeling. But actually even though I kind of feel like nobody "knows" me I know that they actually do. I'm sure people know about me than I think. And I'm sure people know more about you than you would think. And if you are going to hide everything why complain about nobody knowing anything. What's the point? Then you just end up getting mad at them for asking so many questions. This really has no point just something I have noticed EVERYONE do. Including myself.

So I heard some guy got shot in the butt

What a way huh? I don't think anyone died NEWS TIME!

Lock down???

Okay so our school is on lock down. This is really creepy. Escorted to the bathroom? I want to go home so bad. And we have to stay here for however long they say. Guess no picture today? Unless they say it's okay to leave. Then Daphne shook the door. Which scared everyone. It's kind of funny. Nobodies in the school but there is someone in the area. Which makes me so nervous. I want to call my mom to go home.

Going to Try

I want to write all the time again. I just went and read all of my old posts. I'm so lame. But it's actually a very good look back at this whole year. Weird though it makes it seem like this year wasn't that long at all. I graduate in two weeks. I know you guys hate it when I bring it up but I like to talk about it. I'm excited to graduate. I just wish it was one week instead of two. Which with the way things go it will be in no time. Hm...Hm...Hm... I feel like rearranging my room. But I don't know how to set it. Also I would have to clean my room first. I need to do my English homework. IT'S SO DUMB THOUGH!!! Why have the sae project over and over and over. IT GETS BORING!!! Even if there are different options the other options are too hard to do so nobody will do them. DUH! Anywho. 9 days of school left.

I feel like

YouTubin' again. It's okay Golden Girls are very good to watch instead. Usually Murder She Wrote is on tonight but tonight it's all Golden Girls and there are more than usual nights! I find it sad that I'm more excited about this than most other things.